Zyan began his Montessori Journey almost a month, and already we are seeing the positive impact going there has had on him. I will be frank, I was a bit taken aback when he asked me to not help him pull up his pants after using the bathroom. The first few days were extremely difficult as this was the first time we left him with strangers although that I am grateful both my wife and I have large families and Zyan already experienced a huge network. I am sure that exposure allowed him to handle this new situation much more rapidly than if we had been just around us two. I now know that feeling of wanting to keep Zyan tear free at the first moment of discomfort, but swallowing that pain allowed him to grow.
Each attendance at the school brings new pleasure. The length of his sentences, the smiles, the interactions, the warmth inside our hearts watching him learn new things. It has not been without stress which was mostly self-inflicted as we both also learn to adapt to this new reality. In developing a new routine for him, we did not anticipate that it would also mean changes for us which in hindsight should have been obvious. However, all of this has led to genuine pleasure in experiencing Zyan.
One of my new habits is to constantly check the school App as they provide image updates on Zyans day. It makes us feel connected as we are able to see his day progress. The smile that comes when we see him participate, play or simply eat. It makes for a pleasant day with each update, and some anxiety for me as I truly wish for him to have stress free days. I know its my own anxiety talking, and each new day he puts me at ease that he is learning, and becoming comfortable around those who are not family or familiar. I look forward to the day he runs out of our hands with no fuss, but I also dread that day a bit because it means he perhaps needs us less.
Those are my own battles and ones Zyan does not need to face.