Brownness

6 Months In

Its hard to believe that half of 2026 is officially over. When I look back, it still feels like I am at the beginning of things, and that’s because I am for some of the things I’d planned, but then there was so much other progress in unexpected ways. I became a power user of Claude and while I was team Chat GPT, I cannot fathom going back. I am sure this will be true if I switch to another AI or software. Yet I also know that constant switching doesn’t always serve me. Sometimes, you have to stick with things rather than move on to the next shiny thing. I know I get attracted to something, but then don’t use fully or deeply and then become frustrated. One of things I am proud of is my curiosity, but one of the things I am frustrated by is my wanting to know and understand things immediately rather than do the work to get a fuller picture.

So I begin the second half of 2026, I go in with the knowledge that I now have the tools to get me a clearer and calmer picture. It also means that I get to recommit to my habits that have supported me in the past. One of the things that has become a struggle is the 5am class. While before I couldn’t imagine doing it, now that is the only time I can do it and if I don’t, it means a day without a workout. And slowly, this I have slipped from going 5 days a week to most weeks barely twice. This is concerning in a way but in other ways its also great feedback because work has suddenly become far more intense and mentally demanding. No longer do I have the luxury to go during or after work because there are far more important things waiting for me like my family.

There are things still that still remain in my heart and not on a goal post. Things that I still fail at even though I remind myself daily. Like learning to teach my son. Remembering to acknowledge my partner who spends far more time with him and has been such a positive influence in his personality and mannerisms. Sharing my struggles or my insecurities with others not just lost inside my head. Learning to channel my negative emotions into healthier actions rather than giving into them and damaging or wounding those around me.

And so tomorrow begins the second part to this year, and a chance to make this an even more memorable year, to teach, to learn, to grow, to do the right thing, to implement, to heal, to be there for others and not just be lost in my dreams. Thank you for the lessons 2026, I will use them to make you one for the books.

Brownness

A Missed Train=A Perfect Day

This past weekend we planned to take the train to a place we had been to before but wanted to revisit to fully experience it. At first, the day looked to be a disaster as we missed the train by one whole minute. We waved to the conductor who looked at us disinterestedly as he passed us right back on the track. Normally, this would been an entire change in plans or cancellation by my wife wasn’t having it, and instead just got us all in the car and got us San Juan Capistrano Mission District so we could stroll around in the historic Los Rio area. The sun perfectly followed us around as we took Zyan around. He loved Trevors at Tracks which is built right next to the train station so one can train watch. It allowed him to run from train box to train box the the restaurant has, his mind blown that we were eating inside there.

And then came the best part as we discovered an entirely new area which featured multiple restaurant Anaheim Packing District style, a brewery and several massive lawn areas designed for kids to run around. As we took in the scene, it hit us how everything came together so well from a spontaneous decision to just keep going. Something I normally would avoid as I see it as a bad omen but again the wife’s passion and decision to make something for our son turned into a beautiful memory and day. SJC is quickly becoming one of our favorite areas simply beause there is so much to do for our son.

We stayed far long than we had planned, and this was definitely an advantage over the train as last time its scheduled forced us to make rushed decisions and while Zyan loved the train, the entire experience felt quick and temporary. The ride became the entertainment and for that day it was enough but this past weekend became more in a way that went into our core memories. Just the three of us connected, loving and enjoying each others company. For that, I am truly grateful to my wife. I look forward to many more missed opportunities that turn into something eventful